“Why God?”

Why, God?  I don’t understand.  Are you listening to my prayers?  Are you angry because of my failure to love and serve you as you deserve?  Are you concerned with more important matters?  Those are questions that I ask sometimes.  I asked it again today.

My sister has much back pain due to Spinal stenosis, (pinched nerves running through her spinal cord) plus four bulging discs, one slipped vertebrae and accelerated arthritis. She also has knee pain yet from a knee replacement a few years back. She goes to work in pain every day.  She returns home in more pain, sometimes barely able to walk.  She has applied for disability twice and was denied both times.  She has Xrays showing all the damage in her back and her specialist doctor highly recommends she stop working.  Yet due to financial stress, she can’t.  We have both prayed and prayed for disability to come through.  After talking to her today, I prayed again because she was again hurting badly.  So, once again I asked God the questions, “Why won’t you help her?  Why won’t you answer our prayers?”  And I pleaded, “God, please help the pain to become less and make a way for her not to have to work. Please.” 

Just because I go to church, have daily devotions, pray quite regularly and have believed in God since my youth does not mean I accept all things with a smile and never question Him.  I do so with respect, of course, but I question just the same.  I wish I had answers.  I wish I could make those who are hurting feel better, but all my wishing never solves anything for anyone.  All I can do is remind myself God is God.  I am not.  I don’t have His wisdom, His omnipotence and His perfect plan for every individual.  Who am I to think I know best and have a better way?  I’m nothing, just a vapor, here today, gone tomorrow.  James 4:14 yet you do not know what tomorrow will bring. What is your life? For you are a mist that appears for a little time and then vanishes.

So my friends, I sit here and weep.  I weep for those who are suffering because of mass shootings.  I weep for those who have a life ending disease hanging over them, I weep for aborted babies and children thrown away like trash, I weep for the homeless who sleep on the street, for the families who lose loved ones in war, for those who die way too young and for the elderly alone and forgotten.  I weep because I don’t understand and at the same time, I cling to the hope we have in Jesus Christ, that one day He will come rescue us and He will make all things right and all things good.  We won’t be stuck here forever in our heartache and pain.  Our Savior is coming, and we can look up in confidence, knowing we are loved by God and His promises are true. 

Until then, yes, I will weep some more.  And yes, I will continue to ask questions and not understand.  Yet one thing I fully know; I will hold tightly to Jesus because I know without Him, I have nothing.  NOTHING.  No hope, no promise, no purpose.  No, I can’t make things better for you, but I will continue to pray and seek Jesus.  I trust Him with all things, even when it hurts.  And I thank Him that this life is only temporary, and eternal life with Him is my confidence and my joy.  My dear friends, I can’t promise you a happy ending, but Jesus can and He does.  One day He will indeed rescue us, but until then, remind yourself that He is always worth the journey. 

About myjourneywithjesus2017

Hello! My name is Sheree, and this is just a little about myself.  I am a mom, grandma, sister, aunt, daughter, sister-in-law and wife.  I enjoy baking and am presently baking at a family restaurant in my hometown of about 11,000.  I enjoy the computer, writing, love animals, good coffee and have a sweet tooth that never dies!  I also am a homebody, and enjoy spending time with my family.  I have 6 children of my own, 3 step children, and  14 grandchildren. I am married to Joe, (my second marriage) and we both enjoy being outdoors on nice days.  He enjoys the woods, while I enjoy my small deck with a shade tree. Every once in a while one of the kids or grandkids will stop by to brighten my day.  My husband and I both are Green Bay Packer fans, and attend an awesome church with an awesome Senior Pastor and staff. I am interested in Bible Prophecy and love Christian music, my favorite band being Casting Crowns, though there are so many great songs out there, I could never name them all.  Music connects me to God in such a personal way, mostly because they express what my heart has felt so many times. Lastly, I’m not rich, beautiful or famous and those have never been my goals, but I have a heart for God, and I have so many instances where He has moved and worked in my life.  Some of those times, I hope to share with you.  I know Jesus lives, and I know I will go to heaven when I am called ‘home’.  I also know without a doubt that He loves you more than anyone else.  You were on His mind as He hung on the cross, because you were the reason He was there.  I am the reason He was there, and so is every person on earth the reason He was there.  I want people to know there is hope.  There is always hope.  The only time when hope is gone, is if  you ever find yourself totally separated from God, after your death.  I pray that never happens and you can be sure it doesn’t.  Your soul will be saved if you say the sinners prayer, and you mean every word.  If you are looking for love, forgiveness, peace and eternal life, you need to look no further than the cross on which Jesus died for you.  He was raised on  the 3rd day and He has an awesome future in store for all those who believe.  Don’t wait until it’s too late. Sinners prayer-  “Dear Lord, I come to you in repentance of my sin.  I believe you died for me, rose again and you live today.  Please cleanse my heart and help me to live for you.  Thank you for forgiving me.  I surrender my life to you, and receive you as my personal Lord and Savior.  Amen.”
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