I’m a mother of 6 children. I love them all so much. I was a stay at home mom, and enjoyed being a mom, with all the ups and downs, scares and joys. It was the best part of my life. Today they are all grown and on their own, but with the passing of time, two things have never changed. 1) I love them today as much as I did the first time I held them in my arms. 2) I still want to fix all of their ‘owies’. The first one comes naturally. The 2nd, God is teaching me that “I can’t”.
As each one of my children reached adulthood, the hurts they face became bigger than a scraped knee or a bloody nose. They have problems that not only bring them heartache, fear, or both, but they bring to me the question, “What can I do?” “How can I help? They are dealing with something I can’t kiss and make better like the cut on their finger when they were young. I tell myself, “I can’t sit still and just do nothing.” Then I devise a way that might help, such as write a letter that I think someone needs to read, or come up with a idea that could make things easier, and even try to talk them into doing what ‘I think’ they need to do to make things right again. Until one day, I wrote that letter, believing it would open the eyes of the reader and they would do what I needed them to do. But, as you may have guessed, it just backfired and did not help the situation at all. I told myself, “Well, at least I tried”, and then began to think of something else I could maybe do. At that moment this ‘small still voice’ inside of me seemed to say, (and pretty loudly at that, lol) “Stop. I am God. You are not. Sometimes child, you just need to be quiet, and not say anything, not do anything, but instead, just trust Me. I’ve got this. I can take care of it. All you really need to do is, give it to me. Don’t hold onto it; let me have it. And. Just. BE. STILL.” Psalm 46:10 “Be still, and know that I am God!
I guess that’s when it finally sunk in. I can always love them, but I can’t always help them. Yet, I can do one better. I can take my concerns and their problems to the one who CAN do something and loves them even more than their mother. Their Creator. God has a plan for each of our lives. And in our lives, we have sorrow, heartache and pain. But God has taught and continues to teach me that even though I do worry and do feel helpless at times, He is the only one who can bestow upon us His grace, mercy, forgiveness, and love we cannot even begin to grasp. He will bring goodness out of evil, laughter out of crying, joy out of sorrow and life out of death. If we will only lay all of the pain and fear at the foot of the cross, and rest in His embrace, all things will work together for good, if we will only Be Still, and follow His lead. Romans 8:28 And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.
I will always want my kids to have a great life. I want them to be healthy and happy. I want them to be able to pay their bills and still have what they ‘want’. But I have learned that I cannot and more importantly, should not always try to fix something I can’t and was never meant to fix. But I can pray for them. I can talk to the One who loves them more than I do, who has a plan for their good and who has always been faithful in all aspects of life. Who am I to think that I can do any better than my Heavenly Father? Oh, I’ve so much more to learn! But thank you, God, that by your sweet grace, I am learning to ‘be still’ knowing you are in control, and you have goodness in store for those who love you. Ephesians 3:20 Now to him who by the power at work within us is able to do far more abundantly than all that we ask or think,
Yeah….He’s got this.