Down Days

I’m having a down day.  So here I am penning (typing) my words to let some of the sad out.  I know we all have these days from time to time.  I just feel sad.  I feel burdened.  I feel like hope and faith doesn’t come as easy today as it did yesterday.  I’m not sure why these days come, or what causes them to evolve.  I only know there are days that hurt, some days when you cry at the drop of a hat, and you feel regret for past mistakes and too weak to climb out of that deep, dark pit of despair.  I tell God I don’t like this feeling and I want to be joyful, but with the same breath I’m wondering if He is even listening.  The world is in shambles and it needs Him more than I do, for who am I to think I am worthy of His ear.  Oh, I know in  my head God hears, so I ask for forgiveness for ever thinking He doesn’t, and I tell Him I’m just feeling sorry for myself, and then I stop praying…just like that, and not sure why.  I know He hasn’t stopped listening, but maybe I have stopped believing that my little world matters as much as others, and I know it could always be worse, because for someone else it is.

Yes, I’m rambling.  That’s what I do.  Because today I look out my window and it is cloudy with gray skies, and cold and I am wondering when the joy and laughter and resurrection day is coming.  I long for heaven, but I am still here for a purpose.  Then I ask God if I have failed Him in this too.  And again, ask Him for forgiveness if I have and promise to try and do better.  Oh, how foolish we may sometimes appear to be to our Lord.  In my heart I know one day everything will be made right.  I long for that day.  I long for the heartaches, bad decisions, failing health, financial needs and broken relationships to be over.  We were created for so much more.

I am grateful for a God who understands me,  He loves me with all of my failures, all of my questions and yes, even on the days when doubt creeps in.  I never doubt that He exists, I guess I am just doubting myself.  I long to put a smile on Gods face.  Sometimes, I think I do, but others, I’m sure I grieve Him.  On days like today, when I’m feeling down, I’ll just trust that God doesn’t love me any less.  I have many things to be grateful for, and I am.  And yes, it will get better.  Life will get better.  So, if you’re having ‘one of those days’,  keep looking heavenward, keep praying and keep believing.  It isn’t all about how we ‘feel’, it’s what we believe in our hearts to be true.  God is still on the throne, and He still hears and answers the prayers of His children, no matter how small or how big they may be. And one day everything will be made right and the rejoicing will never end.

You know something?  I am actually beginning to feel better….I guess keeping our focus on God always seems to make a ‘down’ day feel a little better.

About myjourneywithjesus2017

Hello! My name is Sheree, and this is just a little about myself.  I am a mom, grandma, sister, aunt, daughter, sister-in-law and wife.  I enjoy baking and am presently baking at a family restaurant in my hometown of about 11,000.  I enjoy the computer, writing, love animals, good coffee and have a sweet tooth that never dies!  I also am a homebody, and enjoy spending time with my family.  I have 6 children of my own, 3 step children, and  14 grandchildren. I am married to Joe, (my second marriage) and we both enjoy being outdoors on nice days.  He enjoys the woods, while I enjoy my small deck with a shade tree. Every once in a while one of the kids or grandkids will stop by to brighten my day.  My husband and I both are Green Bay Packer fans, and attend an awesome church with an awesome Senior Pastor and staff. I am interested in Bible Prophecy and love Christian music, my favorite band being Casting Crowns, though there are so many great songs out there, I could never name them all.  Music connects me to God in such a personal way, mostly because they express what my heart has felt so many times. Lastly, I’m not rich, beautiful or famous and those have never been my goals, but I have a heart for God, and I have so many instances where He has moved and worked in my life.  Some of those times, I hope to share with you.  I know Jesus lives, and I know I will go to heaven when I am called ‘home’.  I also know without a doubt that He loves you more than anyone else.  You were on His mind as He hung on the cross, because you were the reason He was there.  I am the reason He was there, and so is every person on earth the reason He was there.  I want people to know there is hope.  There is always hope.  The only time when hope is gone, is if  you ever find yourself totally separated from God, after your death.  I pray that never happens and you can be sure it doesn’t.  Your soul will be saved if you say the sinners prayer, and you mean every word.  If you are looking for love, forgiveness, peace and eternal life, you need to look no further than the cross on which Jesus died for you.  He was raised on  the 3rd day and He has an awesome future in store for all those who believe.  Don’t wait until it’s too late. Sinners prayer-  “Dear Lord, I come to you in repentance of my sin.  I believe you died for me, rose again and you live today.  Please cleanse my heart and help me to live for you.  Thank you for forgiving me.  I surrender my life to you, and receive you as my personal Lord and Savior.  Amen.”
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